2010 already. Well, almost.
Well, what can I say about 2009. I think for the most part, I've been reading and hearing about everyone's year and how crappy it was and even how people couldn't wait for the year to end; but to be honest, 2009 has been so good to me. That is an understatement. It has been great. So much so, that I'm almost sad to see it go or even let it go...but what can I do. Time doesn't wait for anyone.
So as the new year approaches and this year- and decade- come to an end, what can I take away from this portion of my life? Well, 2009 was the perfect example of a year that reflects my whole decade. It was a time of growth, learning[not only of people and life lessons, but the learning of who I was, as a person], overcoming adversity, deaths and births, and anything else one could think of.
And yet, all of these vital things and important events in my life seem so miniscule compared to one person who recently came into my life. And I know what your thinking, maybe a year ago it may have been my grandfather or even Tia, but of those two, none have meant as much to me in such a short period of time, nor have I taken away any lessons from our experiences so quickly. This is a BIG statement. I know it is. Maybe I'm just saying it because that is how passionately I feel at the moment; but Anna has FOREVER changed my life and given me faith and hope when I needed it. And though I have only known her for a couple months, she brings out the best in me. She makes me wanna be a better man, a better person. And inspires me to "do good" in this world full of tragedy. She inspires me to look for the good in people and in situations, though she is a pessimist herself. How did she do all this? I don't even know... I'm not even sure she knows what effect she has on me. She insists that she is a simple girl...sure she is. But for me, Anna is something, or rather someone very VERY special.
She will always be the girl that got away. The girl that, I feel, I deserved...
Sweet, simple Anna. I will never forget our shared moments together. Or how amazing it felt making you laugh and smile. How of all the SIGNIFICANT people that I have let come and go in my life, I didn't want that to happen with you.
How I wanted to be the one who helped restore your faith in love...
...even though I knew how strongly you believed love did not exist...and that this view was completely unshakable. Yet you are an unrelenting believer in God and probably the most religious person I have ever met.
She broke my heart, but I am not bitter. I think that speaks for itself on how highly I think of her.
Regardless, the most important thing she has given me is hope. Knowing that someone like Anna is out there in this world restores my faith in humanity and restores my faith that my other half is still out there.
Anna, Jay Sean's-"Down" will always be your song... =]
"So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Youll be my only, no need to worry..."
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Youll be my only, no need to worry..."
to be continued......
-The Great and Powerful R-OZ [get it? ross/ OZ?? nvm]
P.S. Dia> Hayley lol
I enjoyed your sound off, oh great and powerful R-Oz. Hehe.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you enjoyed 2009. I did, too, but I get the sense that you'll miss it on a pretty deep level. And you're right: time does not wait for anyone.
So I wish you much success in 2010, my friend.